I have always been attracted to unusual. The different. It seems there is this pattern my heart follows. I find something that amuses or interests me, I cherish it, then soak in the joy of it, only to lose interest when its popularity grows. Once everyone wants it, I’m so over it.
It happened several times as I grew up. There was Animal, the character from the Muppets. Scooby Doo. Taz. As an adult, I loved, then lost love for the VW bug, as well as, the mini-coopers. So, many people started buying them that they were everywhere. Common. Nothing unusual about them anymore.
While I was attracted to different, I never wanted it for myself. Different is what gets you noticed. I didn’t want to stand out in any way. My clothes were solid – no prints or patterns. No bright colors. I never wanted someone to draw attention to me in a group. If a teacher called on me in class, I wanted to hide under my desk. I wanted to blend in.
Yet, as I follow Christ, a new desire emerges – DIFFERENT. I want my life to look different from the lives of those in the world. Lives characterized by selfishness, impulsiveness, and fear. I want more than that. I want to be the kind of person that, when others meet me, they see something different. I want them to see someone who LOVES her God passionately. Someone who is willing to be different, or anything else her God wants her to be.
To quote the song Different, by Micah Tyler, “I want to be different. I want to be changed, ‘til all of me is gone, and all that remains, is a fire so bright the whole world can see that there’s something different,” in me.